God the Perfect Parent
I have had a tough time being back in Abilene, especially after the fantasy of camp. At camp everything seemed so easy, I could connect with God easily, I found happiness all around, I was constantly excited, and I had a lot of fun. But being back to Abilene (reality) I have been overwhelmed with difficulties. The weird thing is it isn’t school, is not family, it is everything else. I constantly found myself wanting to give up. I became emotional, depressed, longing to go back to the easiness of camp. I wanted to leave Abilene, the one place I never thought I would get tired of. The funny thing is I felt that God put it on my heart to come back. He is telling me I am suppose to be here. And me being like any rebellious child, I try to do what I want and in the end I come running back to Him crying cause I got hurt. But the thing is with God he doesn’t say “I told you so” he is comforting and loving. Then I do it again, I find myself thinking “What if…” and God put thing I want to run away from on my mind and I can’t get rid of it. I feel as if he is being like a parent telling me to obey because he doesn’t want to see me get hurt, smacking my hand when I get into trouble and start straying away. He is constantly trying to guide me, but I’m like a child with severe ADHD and I run all over the place and do the opposite of what he says. But one thing I have found is that whenever I get hurt and run back to Him he is always accepting, comforting, and he never says “I told you so”. God is the perfect parent, he let’s us know the he would do anything to protect us, but we need to be willing to listen to Him and allow Him to protect us and not try to do everything ourselves. God is telling us He loves us and we can’t do anything that will make Him take that love away.
